Life of an Otaku

I do not know what has happen to me nowadays... everyday i feel depressed over everything and i feel as if something is not complete in my life... i always have this negative feeling in my heart that something bad is going to happen and the more i think of it the more i felt as if i have been forgotten by my friends... like they people do change and sometimes this change maybe good but what have i done wrong to be deprived of this beautiful friendship with my friends??? Or is it because i am a boring type of person that nobody would like to be my friend??? Or is it because i am a type of person who is into religious stuff and that is why i am forgotten??? i am a nobody... i am just a nobody... i am like a 3rd friend meaning if the 1st friend cannot find the 2nd friend, the 1st friend will look for me... i am truly a nobody...nobody likes a nobody...