Hmmmm... Who is the "TRASH", "MONSTER" here?? We have always heard of people criticising each other like in the USA whereby the Whites are criticising the Blacks.. Who are they, the Whites to criticise them??? We are all human beings and we are all the same no matter the colour, race, religion, size and beauty. Those who criticize those based on the categories i have mentioned, they are the "TRASH" and "MONSTER" for they are not human beings! A human being is the one who feels and care about others no matter who or what we are.

Sadly though... It is the adults who are behaving more like "THRASH" or "MONSTER". Like the current situation on the world right now whereby like the even which has occured like the Hurricane Katrina or the unnecessary war on Iraq. Is this what we call a human being?? Whereby using war as a force to eradicate "EVIL"?? Is this the right thing to do?? Maybe to the politicians is the right thing to do for maybe just maybe they have lost the true meaning of being a human being. But to me... A teenager like me who believes in friendship, peace and to always trust people feels that the politicians are doing the wrong kind of justice. That is to me though.

My sense of justice is whereby people are treated equally no matter who or what they are and if it were to protect those who are important to me; hurting myself in order to protect them will what i do. Those who use friendship as a tool like the alliance between a country and using that alliance to start a war; that is not justice its inhumanely wrong. Trusting is much easier than doubting someone and i have always stick to that ever since i am in Pri 3 and that never change until now... That justice of mine have change ever since a void has appear in my heart and luckily for me it is slowly covering it up therefore i need not fear of my justice gone.

The true "TRASH" are those who seek power and are those who use their power to destroy other city, country or people's life. These type of people are those who are not human beings but a DEVIL in disguise.

Isn't nature just wonderful??? Everytime i look at the big blue sky, the big ocean, the trees, breathe in the morning air... I will feel at ease and all troubles seem to ceased and it makes my heart happy and makes me thinking about how nature can really be mysterious in a way.. Sometimes, i feel that nature can really make my heart fall into a deep slumber romantic side... Only.. When it truly happen i can never know... But the feeling of wanting this increases everytime i look around the environment...

The stars and the moon... To me, its a symbol of romance for when one express their feelings during this time, i can feel its special brilliance and it really melted me... Hehe.. Sunset... A perfect romantic stroll on the beach.. Heheh... I wonder when i am able to do that... Hhaha... I love to stare blankly and view nature for there was something that i like but until now... My heart did not give me any answer for i know my place...

The girl of my dreams... I wonder if i am able to find her... My own "Holy Maiden"... Will i be able to find her?? Will my heart feels at ease whenever i am around her?? Will she completely fill the void in my life?? If i can really find her... She is truly my "Holy Maiden"... The "Holy Maiden" who can make me forget all of my troubles and makes me really happy in the inside...

Hmmm... i have a great time yesterday at my cuzzin house... The fun and all... Hehehe... Makes me forget all the unnecesarry situation that makes me infuriated and depressed... Ahhh... The month of April will be so packed with all of my friends birthday... What should i do??? Hmmm... Maybe i can ask grace and brenda if they wanna make a little party for fairuzi, hang giap and habeebah... hmmmm... I wonder... If they agree that will be so cool!! I just love celebrating all of my friends birthday especially my good friends and bestfriends!!! Hehe...

And not forgetting that i will be treating my best buddies to Ben & Jerry's... Hehe.. I wonder if they will be free... Nah... I hope they won't be free... Hahah... Just joking... A promise is a promise and i never ever break my promise... Hehe... I cant believe that i am slowly beginning to becoming an Anime freak!!! Argggghh!! Im actually forcing my parents to bring me to go to Japan in order for me to buy some Japanese Anime!! But my parents are reluctant to do that... Sobsobsob...

Hmmmm... Maybe i can ask my aunt and uncle to try and convince them.. Or maybe i should twiggle them around my little finger huh... Hahah.. How evil of me.. Im capable of doing that though... But it will only make me sound like "anak manja" or in english "spoiled child"... Hhehe.. Thats me.. and no one can change who you are in the inside except for some of my nature which have change due to certain events which have happened and im not liking it though... One of them is this : "HATRED". For 18 years i do not know the meaning and feeling of hatred.. But the moment i reach at the age of 19, certain events happened which caused my heart to actually have hatred in it.. The void is appearing in my heart... HATRED is slowly enveloping me.. And im trying not to let this get into me for i am a typical teenager who value peace, love, kindness and not hatred...

Certain things need to be taken into action regarding this void of mine... Something precious of mine has been threatened and i will do anything to protect it from those who seek to destroy it.. Hhehe... How nostalgic... Hhaha.. So not me.. Oh well... I just hope i am able to go to Japan around this year and i am currently waiting for the Japanese Anime VCDs which i have ordered...

DN Angel, Fruits Basket, Kyou Kara Maou, Eyeshield 21, Detective Conan... Haahaha.. These are the titles of the anime i ordered... And it all totalled nearly $400+++... Wow!!! i hope i have enough cash to pay when it comes to my doorstep... Hahah.. And not to mention of a jacket i ordered from Warner Brothers.. A Harry Potter jacket and it only cost $49.90!! That cheap huh and oh yeah not forgetting the shipping price and im still pondering if i want to buy Lord Of The Rings collectible... hmmmm... Maybe i should cut down of my spending expenditure... Oh well... Overall... Im a HAPPY TEENAGER even though a void has appear in my heart...

Sadness seems to be hovering around me and among some of my friends... Im not happy to be able to sense this from any of my friends... I despise it.. For their sad mood will only affect my mood... My mood changes depending on the people surrounding me... It will be more sensitive if the person whom i know for long is sad...

Nadia sama... Do not let your heart touched by grief and dont bother to care about those who do not care for your feelings.. This is my view... Crying will not make it right even if it did it is only done due to sympathy not from your heart. When u are sad or troubled you are only making people around you worried. We as your friends do not want to see you troubled or sad and we cannot help you if you were to remain in a box and not to truly understand yourself and not to be able to trust anyone in telling your problems.. it will only make you suffer.. Please listen to your heart and remember that all of your friends are worried if you are troubled or sad...

Anger and hatred seems to be filling the void in my heart... I have no idea who causes it but i have some vague theory and futhermore.. Hatred is not in my nature however if it were to threaten something which is important to me.. That feeling will erupt.. Humppph....

Ha! I KNEW IT!! I AM TREATED LIKE THE LAST LETTER OF THE ALPHABET!!!