Like the spirits that govern the elements of Fire, Water, Earth, Fire And Love... Everything is interwined with each other.. The very thread of life runs in between... Creating the time and space... Mysteries are hidden and untold... Creatures of unknow origins emerge and thus begins the quest of such... Memories flew like the birds in the sky... Increasing and unlimited like the azure sky... It will only stop when time stops... Even so... The very essence of this earth is govern by the complexitiy of the guardians...

I know where i stand in this world and this very existence... I am useless and even if i were to die.. No one will even remember me... And i guess this world would not miss a person like me... Even my own littlest sister belittled me... Rejecting my help with her work... i know its pathetic tat an adult who hears this should regard this as nothing for she still a child but to have to hear frm someone who is younger saying im lousy and not clever... it juz really makes me hurt in the inside more... More and more pain is added to my life...

No one ever appreciates me... No one... My existence is like a pile of trash waiting to be discarded... I juz have enuf with this!!! Everytime i tried to be positive and trying to accept who i am and what god has given this me... This happens... Everytime its like this... Everytime... Everytime im going to bring myself up, this happens.. Why must this happen to me?? Ive lost those whom i closed with.. My Great Grandma and my Grandpa... MY friends are drifting apart from me... Its alright if this.. im able to accept it But im not able to accept if my confidence is taken away from me...

Ive juz tried to be who i am last time... The Real me who accepts whatever is thrown at me... But look what happen... Once again... Ive been hurt by the strands of time, reality and my own inferiority that even your little sister belittle you... Its enuf that i have some of my friends who belittled me... I do not want it from my own family or cuzzins... My uncles and aunties have belittled me.. Enuf.. I know i have to study hard to show tat even tho im in ITE i can still make it and ive showed them.. And yet... People still belittled me.. Ive had enuf with this...

Its as if my entire existence is on a standstill. The entire universe has stopped expanding... To be belittled by your own family, cuzzins... Ive had it... I dun mind and i can take it from my friends who belittled me but i do not expect my own family to belittle me... Its like a dagger was stabbed thu my heart..

Konichiwa!! Hehe.. Fay here... Thats a name i like to associate myself with.. This name belongs to a mage in an anime. Anyway im not goin to talk abt this.. Im actually goin to blog abt some interesting things regarding the mummification of mummies during the Egyptian Times. Its really amazing!!! The procedures to mummifying a mummy is juz breathtaking.. I do not know much tho... Thats why im currently reading books on Archaelogy and also Psychology.. Im getting interested in psychology. Hahaha...

The only thing i know is this and its from the movie: The Mummy. However, ive done the research and its actually true. The organs of the one whom they are supposed to mummified will be separated into 5 different jars. I do not know wat are the organs. However the process of removing the brain from the person whom they want to mummified is really amazing. They poke a long needle up through yuour nose, they twirl it around and they pull it right out of your nose. The process is fast and no pain. This too is taken from the movie... Ive done the research and once again its true.

Its amazing isnt it. About placing curses on the mummies; that may be true. For during the times of Prophet Moses, magic are at rage and so its not a surprised that these mummifiers placed curses on the Pharoah's Tomb. During the times of Moses, magic is always around only when the times of Prophet Muhammad, magic is no longer made available for everybody and those who want to learn or acquire magic have to do it on their own risk.

Learning abt the ancient times and scavenging for rare knowledge like this is really wonderful. Ive got a research wic i did regarding Cannabilism. Ive watched it at Discovery Channel and futher my knowledge abt it more through my encyclopedias and wikipedia. Theres one wic i found its about this man at around his 40s. He wrote it in his site or smth and say tat those who want to commit suicide and cant do it. Come to this following address i will do it for u at a price. The price is erm.. i wont say it.. It will be freaky.

Im still in the depression state and i still cant get rid of the loneliness feeling in my heart.. But im trying to not to be bothered by it. Even though its hard.. Hahah... Even my laughter can only be borught upon if i watched animes. Weird huh...

Most of my friends say tat i am unique different from other malays. I do not know wat they meant. In wat way am i diff?? I looked at myself... All i see is a nerd who loves his animes and books and games and psp. Oh well.. I guess the question will still remain a mystery...