Life of an Otaku

I know where i stand in this world and this very existence... I am useless and even if i were to die.. No one will even remember me... And i guess this world would not miss a person like me... Even my own littlest sister belittled me... Rejecting my help with her work... i know its pathetic tat an adult who hears this should regard this as nothing for she still a child but to have to hear frm someone who is younger saying im lousy and not clever... it juz really makes me hurt in the inside more... More and more pain is added to my life...

No one ever appreciates me... No one... My existence is like a pile of trash waiting to be discarded... I juz have enuf with this!!! Everytime i tried to be positive and trying to accept who i am and what god has given this me... This happens... Everytime its like this... Everytime... Everytime im going to bring myself up, this happens.. Why must this happen to me?? Ive lost those whom i closed with.. My Great Grandma and my Grandpa... MY friends are drifting apart from me... Its alright if this.. im able to accept it But im not able to accept if my confidence is taken away from me...

Ive juz tried to be who i am last time... The Real me who accepts whatever is thrown at me... But look what happen... Once again... Ive been hurt by the strands of time, reality and my own inferiority that even your little sister belittle you... Its enuf that i have some of my friends who belittled me... I do not want it from my own family or cuzzins... My uncles and aunties have belittled me.. Enuf.. I know i have to study hard to show tat even tho im in ITE i can still make it and ive showed them.. And yet... People still belittled me.. Ive had enuf with this...

Its as if my entire existence is on a standstill. The entire universe has stopped expanding... To be belittled by your own family, cuzzins... Ive had it... I dun mind and i can take it from my friends who belittled me but i do not expect my own family to belittle me... Its like a dagger was stabbed thu my heart..