Anwar Ibrahim... He has won the critical By-election... My... My... Malaysia is really in a big pinch is someone like Anwar were to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia... It's not because of the accuse of him doing the sodomy... For I can never believe that he did that but the one thing that I don't like about him is that, from my point of view he is power hungry and clearly can be seen. His wife begged to the Malaysians to vote for him and to return him to the Parliament... My... My... If I were to be able to say something to her... I will say this: For goodness sake lady why on earth must you begged to the Malaysians to vote for Anwar if you know Anwar is innocent? You can just fight fairly right? Instead of using people's emotions of empathy towards your husband...

Anwar also promises the Malaysians that he will bring down the cost of Inflamation and the price of oil down... How on earth is he going to do that? The World stock is on its low and the whole world is on inflation and the price of oil even though it has dropped but still it is still expensive... How is he going to fulfill this empty promises of his? To reduce inflation? How is he going to do that? When they country's stock is close to its lower years, inflation has surged to 27 year high and the ringgit currency has fallen to 9 months low against the dollar... HOW IS ANWAR going to bring all of this down and improve the situation? By using his own body oil to produce oil? I don't think so right?

I have no offence on anybody or support anybody in these... It's just that it is clearly seen as if the Malaysians are being paid to vote for Anwar... Why can't they see and intepret what they hear and compare it to the World's stats? There is nothing we can do until the U.S.A has settle its bloody problems... To me... The major cause of all this is the U.S.A especially it's President George Washington Bush. Ever since the attack on Iraq, things does not look well... Well... If it were me, I will put all the blame on Bush not on anybody else... I think that Bush is the No.1 wanted terrorists... Invading other people country for his own purposes and conquest for power...

Mysteries! Mysteries! Everywhere we go there are lots of mysteries!! I just love mysteries!! I just love old abandoned buildings! Even though I am afraid of them but still.. What is hidden in all of these abandoned buildings? What secret does it holds? Does it holds ancient intelligence of this world or the world beyond? Even just the mentioning of them sends shivers down my spine!! Of course I am not one bit interested about Singapore though... Even if Singapore were to hold mysteries... I would not even bother to want to even know about it..."

All of this specters? Aren't they interesting? Very interesting right? Those with psychic abilities.. PK-LT... Wow!! Well.. I only know some of them though but nevertheless I want to learn more about them and that is basically why I want to travel around the world. Of course my main motive is my animes but nevertheless I am still interested in all this mysteries! Mysteries of Mother Nature herself and the wonders that came with it! The 7 wonders of the Ancient Worlds, Modern Worlds!! I just love them all.. Even though they are not mysteries.. I love to go to this amazing places one day... If I am bloody rich... But sadly.. I am poor... hahaha... Bleuggh... Oh well I guess this dream can never come true is it? Even with high salary as such.. It's such a hassle living in a country like Singapore... Everytime... Pay and Pay... Pay this.. Pay that... Even though Singapore is soooo tiny... Everything is so expensive... Even the transport fees also... Hummph... If Singapore is as huge as America or Japan than I understand.. But Singapore is sooo tiny... Our butt is not even warm, we have already reached our destination... Singapore is truly a small and boring country to live in... Oooops... I cannot say much... Sorry...

I have always been alone in all my life... Even though I am surrounded by my family and wonderful, irreplacable friends, I will still feel alone inside... I know I am being selfish for having this type of feelings in me... But the more time passes by, it just made me realise that I am more alone than I thought... With each time passing by, it feels as if my heart is being taken over by the cold of the frozen tundra... Even happiness seems so far for me to achieved... My smile, my laughter... Is it all fake? Is this the the true me? What do I really want in life? Why is it that nothing I want has never come to me?! I have lots of dreams and wishes but all of these are just but dreams and can never be reality...

Even though I have tried my hardest and my very best in showing my capability, my hard work is not seen... Like as I thought... I can never be in the spotlight aren't I... I will always have to be the one working in the shadow, becoming someone's backbone... Even so... I am so used in being this way that it feels as if it already a part of me... My hard work and everything... It really does not meant anything isn't it in this society?! What's the point of me being hardworking and trying my best in everything if it only makes me even more miserable?! ME being nice and kind... What the point of it if people keep using me for something they need for their own purpose?! If that is what destiny wants me to be then I might as well accept it right!! I have no right to say NO to my destiny as it has already been predestined the moment I was born...

Why is it that people keep wanting to be friends with me even though I have surround a barrier myself?! I have always tried not to make new friends as I was afraid of being used and forgotten the moment they have needed something from me... What are the true purpose of they wanting to be my friend? During my primary school days... I have always been alone... I have no friends during that time and that is the truth... During that time I only have the sky and plants around me to be my friend... When I enter secondary school life, I earn myself very wonderful friends and even earning very very very close friends whom I really treasure with all my heart... I was really happy back then... Really happy... I can not ask more than what I have during that time... But... Soon... Reality came slapping me back to this world... All changed when I entered another leap of education system and finally made me realised that all this while, I have always been in the shadow of my friends and I can never stand out when I am alone... I bathe in the light of my friends... I can never shine on my own...

In fact I am just like the moon... I can never shine on my own... I need another to help make me shine... Without the sun, the moon will never be able to be seen in the dark sky... I am just like the moon... MY friends are like the sun and i am like the moon supporting the sun... In the end, nobody recognizes the moon as the moon is not something lovely and in this society not all adores the moon or even admire the moon... To me... Everytime I see the moon and stars up on the dark velvet sky it makes me feel that I am just like them... Their light can rarely be seen as their light are covered by the majestic light from the sun and it appears that I am just like the infinite dark velvet sky... Living as a shadow in other's presence...

I am after all a very NORMAL average student/person... With no special talents and special skills... I am not born with these I understand that... Even though everybody say that everyone is born the same, I do not see that... And everything is fair... To me... That is not true... If it is true that everything is fair, and born just like how normal kids are then why must there be innocent babies born with deformaties?! IS that what you call normal and fair?! I really do not understand anything of this! I can never understand on to why am I even born if I were to just always be a shadow and only create unhappiness and trouble around me? MY existence alone is not making anyone happy... I am never appreciated... I am never appreciated... Thus, this marks the beginning of Khafian's life as a shadow...