Life of an Otaku

People will always asked me... Are you happy? My answer would be... I do not know... Is my laughter really indicate my happiness or is it the other way round? All I do know is... I have never felt this lonely than ever... Yes... I am fine being alone... As I've always been this way ever since I'm in Primary... All I do know is... The moment I begin to feel happiness... More misery will fall... I guess I am not really meant to have happiness isn't it? I do not know if... this is what you call fair... Others have such bloody hell damn of good luck and prosperity while others... have such bloody hell damn of fucking bad luck and being poor... Is that what you call fair? I think not! It's all just but bullshit to say that is fair!

I might sound I am not thankful... I am thankful or I am not thankful I do not know... All I do know is... Everything that has happened is all not fair... Everything... as I have expected... Misery will always be my very " best friend"...