I've just heard the most amazing news ever!! Firstly, it has to do with this so call my friend, i do not know if i can still call her that, but anyway, her issues are like so predictable, that you actually need not bother of trying to console her. It's simply just a waste of your time, and honestly, it is a waste of your time. Listening to her nonsensical ranting, while actually you can do something much better, like watching animes or even learn another language??

That's why, whenever she got a problem, and usually have to do with relationship, and that i heard they are breaking up, i do not feel anything at all for her you know. It's like alright... when i first time heard, i feel sorry for her, but then after a while, it just gotten sicker and sicker, and eventually makes me so irritated that i heck care about her problems, and just pretend to put on my listening ear, but in fact i hear nothing. It's the same old story, old shit... and you will still get to know the outcome, let's say maybe the earliest 3 days, or the longest, 1 month?

If that were to be made into a movie, i will definitely know what the critics would say: This show is down the drain. Its redundant, and foolish. I can just like not bother about my friend problem. Call whatever you want about me, evil, or heartless. I would rather listen to boring lectures than her so call 'big' problem, which in turn solve itself, and then break apart once again, and then solve once again. It's basically a never ending story. If this were to be a marriage, you can only do it three times... and like wow, they have been like Break & Patch for god knows how much. Had your fun in your own Theme Park?

Enough about that 'friend' of mine. Regarding about the video that sparked outrage of the netizens. I think it can be classified under the same as the Jack Neo Scandal? or maybe not. I was utterly shocked to see the video, and what's more, it's from my own school. Damn! I am like the Alumni of that school, and i am utterly embarrassed that this actually had taken place. It's either the guy is dumb, or the one who posts the video online is dumb. Are they seriously thinking straight that what they are doing is actually cool? Hitting a girl is cool?? Since when? The guy must have forgotten about how the Singapore Laws protect the girls strongly...

I simply love the Anime Seasons line up! It's simply just amazing! It helps me to break free from my problems, and also not to worry about problems I am facing. You know, being alone definitely has lots of its benefit. First of all, you need not need to worry about hurting others, or that you will not even think so much on how they did not even contact you at all, while we, here will be wondering if we would be bothering if we called them, or would they even remember you.

People always say that i am being paranoid when i say that i am devoid of my friends, or that they did not even remember me, while i will keep constantly wondering about how they are doing and all, and yet, they whom you have been closed for a while, did not even give any piece of shit about you, it just hurts you deeply inside. I am not saying names, but that's what i feel. They only expect you to listen when they have problems, and when we got problem, they will not care, and treat their problems as if it was simply the biggest of it all.

They find it hilarious when you are doing something you like. They did not give you the encouragement, that you would expect from someone close to you, or worse. They simply just cut all relationship with you, without explaining the reason behind their sudden breaking up of friendship. Man, I am really hurt you know... but do they care? No... they think they are the Master of the World, and I, am but just a lowly servant in their eyes. At times, i wish i never have friends - they only hurt you - only when they need something, or to want to have their event filled with more people, only then, they will remember you... that is simply rubbish.

As Thoreau has once said, "I have never find a companion that was so companionable as solitude." And, I have to agree with him. In fact, I support his words! Being in solitude is far much better, than having friends whom you thought they care for you, but in the end, they dun give a bloody damn at all about you. I am thankful for a few of friends, whom I consider as my true friends, and I cherish them with all of my heart. I will not say who... but if you are good in reading people's faces, you will know if you are my true friend, or that i had fun when hanging out... then, I like you, and i treasure your friendship. Other than that, I simply go along for the sake of it, and that, I only want to save your face.

Lots of people said that lately i've always been feeling sad and everything... but they did not understand truly what i feel. They did not ask the reason behind my sadness but then when they asked, and i tell them my reason... they said i think too much and that i am being paranoid. Being paranoid am I? Look at what happened to me now? I'm being cast out... forgotten like how a pile of trash being treated.

I am used to being alone... really, I am for I've always been like that ever since I was in Loyang Primary School. I am not exactly what people would say the popular type and I am use to be treated like that... with having no friends that is. But then, I thought... maybe in Secondary School... my luck would change but then it is still the same isn't it. No one wants to make friends with me. The only reason i could probably give of being 'popular' in school was probably due to me being friends with Aliff and Ridzwan.

I did not think much of that until when I've graduated from Siglap Secondary School. Only then did i notice that they were not exactly warmed up to me like I expected them to be... I guess.. as what people said, My kindness will sometimes let people take advantage of you and i guess that is true isn't it? Everything is being revealed to me that the only reason they are nice to me is just because they need smth frm me isn't it?

You know what? When I said this to a certain someone about this... she cried in front of me... what the hell? Do you think i will trust the tears coming from your eyes and the words from your mouth? I don't think so... if you think you are not using me and that you truly consider me as your friend, won't you at least reply to me my sms or picked up my call? But no... instead, she remained quiet about it and would not even apologised to me. But she replied to her other friends, and even to those whom she barely know for like a few months?!

As if i can trust you... you have lied to me once before about a certain incident and i can never ever believe you ever again not even if you were to apologised to me... Maybe you think i am but just a friend that can be used and then throw away like a piece of tissue paper? Hurting other guys feelings and then can still joke and laughed about it treating it as if it was nothing. What kind of human is that?

Enough of that... I best forget about them if they want to forget about me. I've been practically alone ever since i am 8 yrs old... I will be fine alone even till when i grow old... People say, Friends are most important and that they will be there when you need them but then where are they when i need them?! They always expect me to be there but then... when i need them, they forgot about you! Not even my bestfriend... and i wonder if any of my friends whom i treasured deeply cared even much about me like how i did for them? I guess... my kindness and caring are just being wasted on them.

Thodeus is right... Being in a solitude is much more pleasurable than being surrounded by those you call friends.

I am just pouring my heart out in this blog. It's not as if people would read this. And even if they read it, do they think they will care about it?

Kanokon

Kanokon's story revolves around Kouta Oyamada, a young first-year high school student who moves from the country to the city and thus transfers to Kunpō High School. On his first day at his new school, he meets a beautiful second-year female student named Chizuru Minamoto. Chizuru asks him to meet her alone in the music room. When he arrives, she tells him that she is in love with him and accidentally reveals to him that she is in fact a fox spirit. Chizuru constantly flirts with Kouta which embarrasses him greatly due to others watching. Soon after the story begins, a wolf deity named Nozomu Ezomori transfers into Kouta's school and class. From day one, she is all over Kouta which serves to embarrass him more and cause Chizuru to become annoyed at her new competition for Kouta's affection.

I have always loved Ecchi/Romance animes. It's pretty nice. The storyline and everything... I could not say I do not like it... I just love it! when I first read about Kanokon... I was stunned as it kinda hit my interest and you know... I always rewatched whenever I'm bored! My rating? 4 out of 5! Reason wise is that the anime ends without giving more details about Minori Mitama who considers Kouta as her older brother even though they have different surname! Who is Kouta exactly? The anime did not mention any this! I forgot! There's a manga for it! I better read it then but then... I prefer Anime over Manga! Watch it and be amaze!!

Clannad ~After Story~

Clannad ~After Story~ one of the best Romantic Animes I have ever seen apart from Kanon 2006. Clannad ~After Story~ is the sequel after the hit anime, Clannad. This anime taught us about the importance of friends and family. The story goes with the Protagonist in Clannad, Tomoya Okazaki who have a feud with his father ever since the injury he recieved during a fight with his father 3 years ago resulting him in unable to play his favourite sport which is Basketball. Ever since then he was labelled as a delinquent in school along with his friend, Youhei Sunohara who for some reason became a delinquent due to a scene involving the Soccer Club.

Tomoya Okazaki life's however begins to change when he met Magisa Furukawa, the main heroine of Clannad. Nagisa Furukawa plays a major part in Tomoya Okazaki's life and with each day passes by, his attitude and thinking begins to change. He begins to help Nagisa Furukawa to set up the Drama Club again after she has confided in him about how she loves Drama and her desire to have the Drama Club re-established. With each season passes by... His love for her begins to bloom and on the last day of the Cultural Festival, he asked her out... I'm skipping explaining most of it as I would recommend all of you to watch Clannad. It's the best, romanctic and touching anime ever...

To those who have not watched the movie, please don't watch it... Watch Clannad ~After Story~ first... I have watched the movie and it was really touching... I can only say this... Tomoya Okazaki went into a depression for 5 years after the death of Nagisa Furukawa and they have only been married for a year. I...I really can't go on... J...just thinking about it bring tears to my eyes... I would recommend all of you to watch it. It's really good! In fact, I give a rating of 5 stars!!!

Niagara Falls

The Niagara Fall! One of Nature's Majestic Beauty, Strength and Power! It's really beautiful isn't it? No words could explained the breathtaking and wonderful sight of Niagara Falls! It's a perfect place for a honeymoon!!! Tee hehe hehehe...

I've heard a story about the Niagara Falls... They say... To those couples who went inside the Niagara Falls, the guy will always proposed to the girl... It's as if Niagara Falls itself is the home to the Angel of Love... tee hehe hehe... although I do not believe in love; nevertheless it is still an interesting legend isn't it? although my very reason of wanting to go to the Niagara Falls is to view the beautiful and wonderful scenery!! although it will be pretty weird huh for a lonesome guy to go to one of the most romantic places in the world... Oh well... Hahahahaha... I wish I will be able to go to the Niagara Falls... not only that... I want to see the Pyramids... They say there are curses and everything!! Wow!! Although I know it's not real but still... Ahhhhhh... It is really damn interesting...

I want to go to Loch Ness... To see the Fabled Loch Ness Monster... Ohh wow... Won't it be wonderful if I were to come across such an adorable and majestic monster? Or maybe go to London where there are the legendary mermaids or is it merrow?? Oh wowo!!! Or maybe go somewhere castles are plenty and I am able to meet Vampires or maybe if I'm lucky I am able to witness a fight between a Vampire and a Werewolves... Ahhhh... Just thinking about all of this brings happiness to my heart... Nothing can take over my love for the supernatural, phenomenal, mystical events.. With my animes... Right? Nagato-san? Tee hehehehe... Nagato is my hubby... my very precious Laptop...

I guess I have changed huh... I am just not able to sync well with any people I met... Only a few I managed to sync well and yet... Haizzzz... Even though I'm use to being alone... I still don't like to be alone but what can I do about it? I'm not really that exciting or wonderful or an interesting person to hang out with... People say I'm kind and everything but maybe I'm being kind because I want them to like me not because I mean it... Maybe... just maybe... Life in poly is totally different and I'm not really happy one bit when i am in poly... I love the course and also certain modules but to exactly say that I am pleased... I am not really sure...

I'm surrounded by interesting people... Very interesting people worthy to be researched... But nevertheless... I am after all but just a shadow... Like in my previous post where the moon reflecting the sun's light and I am like the moon itself who can't shine on their own? Well... I am like the shadow as well... People would generally not noticed shadows as they are not detectable and their presence usually forgotten... That's right... That is what I am feeling right now... Yes... That's right... I am being ignored... and I am not being entertained... My friends... My poly mates... I guess I am just but will be a shadow... destined to be alone...

I guess I deserved it seeing I myself am creating that barrier around myself but even so... To treat me as if I am not in existence... its something which I mostly could not forgive them... Yes... I could not forgive many things... People who take my kindness for advantage... I really despised them... People who make friends with me for their own advantage... I will do it to you as well and you will not like it... I despise backstabbers... and I will backstabbed you even worse than what you have done to me... I do not mind if you insulted me like one hell... But never insulted those whom I care... I will make sure you undergo Hell first...

Yes... I am the moon ever lonely and only shine when it's friends shine... I know my stand in this society... People hate and despised me... Fine... I'm used to it... Those whom I consider friends... have betrayed me except those close to me... Once a shadow will always be a shadow...