Life of an Otaku

Is it weird that those whom we considered as a friend has decided to ignore or hate us for no apparent reasons at all... Never reply to our message or call and the only reason whom he or she give will always be: i am bored, frustrated and nobody likes me... This makes me really feel that all of my friends are not my friends at all... Only a few i trust but most i am not very sure... Brenda, Grace, Tauhid, KC, Hang giap, Fairuzi, Faris, Sufian, Nadia, Filzah, Ain, Rabia, Habeebah and Hua Meng are the only few whom i really appreciate their friendship. But the rest, i am not very sure at all as i now feel that my "friends" are like forgetting me and not appreciating my friendship but instead have a paranoid thoughts about stupid stuff that will never happen in my book of friendship...

Is it wrong for me to follow what islam has taught wihich is to not to keep any grudge in my heart and to make friends with everybody... Apparently, this friend of mine does not think that way and think that i have been friend with him... Is that lame or what????? I did not know that by following what our prophet has preach to us muslims is wrong in the eyes of the society.... I can't believe it... The friend whom i have trusted and who have always respected my feelings have become an unknown stranger to me... I know that i am an ITE student and i am way different from others in the form of interest... i DESPISE blackmetal and anything that has to do with the destruction of nature, moral destroyer things... I am really hurt inside... Really hurt... My friends are like no longer there... except for a few who are always there when i am down and happy... Tauhid, Brenda, Grace, KC, Nadia, Rabia, Habeebah, Faris, Filzah, Ain, Hang giap and faris; if you guys are reading this, Thank you so much for brightening my life and to always keep me smiling and have been a very good friend to me...

Am i not deserve to be any of your friend??? WHY??? Is it because of my difference??? Or is it because i am arrogant and irritating??? If i am, just tell me... i can take any insults but please... do not show it to me by putting on a mask but in fact in your heart you hated me for my arrogance or something which you guys hate about me.... I can tell what you are thinking by just looking at your reaction when talking to me... I am really hurt inside... I can't believe that some like to feed on people's misery... Are you guys happy now??? You have make me very hurt... All of you are success in your mission...

****Thank you Tauhid, Brenda, Grace, KC, Nadia, Rabia, Habeebah, Faris, Filzah, Ain, Hang giap, faris and Fairuzi for always being there when i am down.... I really appreciate your kindness and friendship... You guys will alway be in my heart...****