Kanokon

Kanokon's story revolves around Kouta Oyamada, a young first-year high school student who moves from the country to the city and thus transfers to Kunpō High School. On his first day at his new school, he meets a beautiful second-year female student named Chizuru Minamoto. Chizuru asks him to meet her alone in the music room. When he arrives, she tells him that she is in love with him and accidentally reveals to him that she is in fact a fox spirit. Chizuru constantly flirts with Kouta which embarrasses him greatly due to others watching. Soon after the story begins, a wolf deity named Nozomu Ezomori transfers into Kouta's school and class. From day one, she is all over Kouta which serves to embarrass him more and cause Chizuru to become annoyed at her new competition for Kouta's affection.

I have always loved Ecchi/Romance animes. It's pretty nice. The storyline and everything... I could not say I do not like it... I just love it! when I first read about Kanokon... I was stunned as it kinda hit my interest and you know... I always rewatched whenever I'm bored! My rating? 4 out of 5! Reason wise is that the anime ends without giving more details about Minori Mitama who considers Kouta as her older brother even though they have different surname! Who is Kouta exactly? The anime did not mention any this! I forgot! There's a manga for it! I better read it then but then... I prefer Anime over Manga! Watch it and be amaze!!

Clannad ~After Story~

Clannad ~After Story~ one of the best Romantic Animes I have ever seen apart from Kanon 2006. Clannad ~After Story~ is the sequel after the hit anime, Clannad. This anime taught us about the importance of friends and family. The story goes with the Protagonist in Clannad, Tomoya Okazaki who have a feud with his father ever since the injury he recieved during a fight with his father 3 years ago resulting him in unable to play his favourite sport which is Basketball. Ever since then he was labelled as a delinquent in school along with his friend, Youhei Sunohara who for some reason became a delinquent due to a scene involving the Soccer Club.

Tomoya Okazaki life's however begins to change when he met Magisa Furukawa, the main heroine of Clannad. Nagisa Furukawa plays a major part in Tomoya Okazaki's life and with each day passes by, his attitude and thinking begins to change. He begins to help Nagisa Furukawa to set up the Drama Club again after she has confided in him about how she loves Drama and her desire to have the Drama Club re-established. With each season passes by... His love for her begins to bloom and on the last day of the Cultural Festival, he asked her out... I'm skipping explaining most of it as I would recommend all of you to watch Clannad. It's the best, romanctic and touching anime ever...

To those who have not watched the movie, please don't watch it... Watch Clannad ~After Story~ first... I have watched the movie and it was really touching... I can only say this... Tomoya Okazaki went into a depression for 5 years after the death of Nagisa Furukawa and they have only been married for a year. I...I really can't go on... J...just thinking about it bring tears to my eyes... I would recommend all of you to watch it. It's really good! In fact, I give a rating of 5 stars!!!

Niagara Falls

The Niagara Fall! One of Nature's Majestic Beauty, Strength and Power! It's really beautiful isn't it? No words could explained the breathtaking and wonderful sight of Niagara Falls! It's a perfect place for a honeymoon!!! Tee hehe hehehe...

I've heard a story about the Niagara Falls... They say... To those couples who went inside the Niagara Falls, the guy will always proposed to the girl... It's as if Niagara Falls itself is the home to the Angel of Love... tee hehe hehe... although I do not believe in love; nevertheless it is still an interesting legend isn't it? although my very reason of wanting to go to the Niagara Falls is to view the beautiful and wonderful scenery!! although it will be pretty weird huh for a lonesome guy to go to one of the most romantic places in the world... Oh well... Hahahahaha... I wish I will be able to go to the Niagara Falls... not only that... I want to see the Pyramids... They say there are curses and everything!! Wow!! Although I know it's not real but still... Ahhhhhh... It is really damn interesting...

I want to go to Loch Ness... To see the Fabled Loch Ness Monster... Ohh wow... Won't it be wonderful if I were to come across such an adorable and majestic monster? Or maybe go to London where there are the legendary mermaids or is it merrow?? Oh wowo!!! Or maybe go somewhere castles are plenty and I am able to meet Vampires or maybe if I'm lucky I am able to witness a fight between a Vampire and a Werewolves... Ahhhh... Just thinking about all of this brings happiness to my heart... Nothing can take over my love for the supernatural, phenomenal, mystical events.. With my animes... Right? Nagato-san? Tee hehehehe... Nagato is my hubby... my very precious Laptop...

I guess I have changed huh... I am just not able to sync well with any people I met... Only a few I managed to sync well and yet... Haizzzz... Even though I'm use to being alone... I still don't like to be alone but what can I do about it? I'm not really that exciting or wonderful or an interesting person to hang out with... People say I'm kind and everything but maybe I'm being kind because I want them to like me not because I mean it... Maybe... just maybe... Life in poly is totally different and I'm not really happy one bit when i am in poly... I love the course and also certain modules but to exactly say that I am pleased... I am not really sure...

I'm surrounded by interesting people... Very interesting people worthy to be researched... But nevertheless... I am after all but just a shadow... Like in my previous post where the moon reflecting the sun's light and I am like the moon itself who can't shine on their own? Well... I am like the shadow as well... People would generally not noticed shadows as they are not detectable and their presence usually forgotten... That's right... That is what I am feeling right now... Yes... That's right... I am being ignored... and I am not being entertained... My friends... My poly mates... I guess I am just but will be a shadow... destined to be alone...

I guess I deserved it seeing I myself am creating that barrier around myself but even so... To treat me as if I am not in existence... its something which I mostly could not forgive them... Yes... I could not forgive many things... People who take my kindness for advantage... I really despised them... People who make friends with me for their own advantage... I will do it to you as well and you will not like it... I despise backstabbers... and I will backstabbed you even worse than what you have done to me... I do not mind if you insulted me like one hell... But never insulted those whom I care... I will make sure you undergo Hell first...

Yes... I am the moon ever lonely and only shine when it's friends shine... I know my stand in this society... People hate and despised me... Fine... I'm used to it... Those whom I consider friends... have betrayed me except those close to me... Once a shadow will always be a shadow...

People will always asked me... Are you happy? My answer would be... I do not know... Is my laughter really indicate my happiness or is it the other way round? All I do know is... I have never felt this lonely than ever... Yes... I am fine being alone... As I've always been this way ever since I'm in Primary... All I do know is... The moment I begin to feel happiness... More misery will fall... I guess I am not really meant to have happiness isn't it? I do not know if... this is what you call fair... Others have such bloody hell damn of good luck and prosperity while others... have such bloody hell damn of fucking bad luck and being poor... Is that what you call fair? I think not! It's all just but bullshit to say that is fair!

I might sound I am not thankful... I am thankful or I am not thankful I do not know... All I do know is... Everything that has happened is all not fair... Everything... as I have expected... Misery will always be my very " best friend"...

Kyou Kara Maoh

My all time favourite anime: Kyou Kara Maoh! It's about a boy named Yuri Shibuya who was flushed down to another world called Shin Makoku where he found out that he's the 27th Maoh. I begin watching this anime in 2006 when I acquired a handphone wallpaper skin of Wolfram. It kinda intrigued me as Wolfram was shown spouting flames from his hands and as an avid lover of magic and fantasy I was drawn to search for the name of the animes. Ever since then, Kyou Kara Maoh has taken the place of my No. 1 list kicking out Inuyasha to the No. 5 on my list.

Yuri Shibuya found himself engaged to Wolfram Von Bielefield when he slapped Wolfram across the cheek for insulting his mother. Unknown to Yuri, that was the traditional custom of Shin Makoku where if a noble were to slapped another noble across the cheek, it means that you proposed to him/her. I really loved this part. It's really funny! Wolfram who was not pleased with the decision threw the cutleries on the table to the floor; Yuri who still do not know the tradition of Shin Makoku picked up the knife on the floor which indicates you accept the duel. This is really the best!!

I prefer the most when Yuri transforms to his True Demon Form!!! He's really really damn cool!!! He uses the Element of Water for his spells and he is really damn powerful!!! Throughout the series, Yuri would faint whenever he transforms to his true from but that changes with time when he uses his Demon Powers to sealed one of the forbidden boxes with the help of the Great Sage, Murata Ken! One of my other favourite character in Kyou Kara Maoh!! I would recommend all of you to watch this anime! It's really worth it!! My rating: 5/5!

Fall Animes!

My favourite season!! Seriously... I love Fall as it is really beautiful and also an indication that Winter is near although I could not experience winter as I live in a damn boring city, Singapore... Not a wonderful place for me as I am deprived of my necessity!!! There are not much of Animes can be found here in Singapore... I really wish someone could bring me to Akhihabara... I am just itching to get and fulfill all my anime needs... The month of Fall not only indicates that Winter is near but also indicates the season of Animes!!! Yippppppeeeee!!! Heheheheheheheh!! I hope I can catch up with all the new animes keep popping up..."

To say the least... My life is pretty complete and to tell you the truth I'm much more comfortable being in the 2-D world rather than in the 3-D world... Everytime when I am watching Animes or play my Anime Simulation game, I really feel at peace and I do not feel betrayed when I am in my 2-D world... 3-D world only brings me hatred, insecurity and injustice is everywhere... Ahhhhh... If only I could live in my created 2-D world. I have a wonderful girl friend in my 2-D world and in my 3-D world. In the 3-D world my girlfriend is none other than my lovely Nagato who is my laptop and in my 2-D world, her name is Julia... Ahhhhh... Lovely... They are the only ones who will never leave me alone... I am always happy whenever I'm with them... Ahhhhh... Just thinking of the wonderful of 2-D I really am glad I do not bear any feelings for the 3-D world... I've lost my feelings for the 3-D world ever since that day when I'm at the hospital..."

Being cut off from my animes brings disaster to my life... It has such an impact on my life... I've lost my spirit to enjoy my life as it appears that everytime I felt happy in my heart, more misery falls on me... Watching animes helps get rid of that feeling... I'm happy but that happiness will not cause me misery... Ahhhhh... Nothing is far better than the World of Animes itself...."

I've got my results for my semester 1 in NYP and amazingly I did better than what I expected it turned out to be... Thank god!! I want to try even harder to get a much better results than this next semester!

How is my life in NYP... hmmmm... I enjoy it maybe or I did not enjoy it maybe... Well what I do know is... After erm...around 4 months I am only closed with a few people whom I can consider as friends in NYP... PRetty sad huh for some people... But for me... HAHAHA!! It's wonderful!! I'm not exactly interested in wanting to increase my circle of friends or improve my social life. I would rather find friends that will stick together forever no matter what than having lots of friends who wil lforget you as soon as you left school... Well... I learned the hard way huh... In secondary days, I've got lots of friends... But when we all head for the different instituiton; well everyone forget each other... Pretty sad huh...

Oh... What to do... I doubt they even remember me... Hahahaha!! I of course remember all of my friends... There are some even more worse... Only remember you when they need something... If not... well.. you are basically forgotten till they need something from you... I am myself is guilty of pretending not knowing them even though I know... Well... since they act that towards me i should do the same right... But then.. It was really stupid of me to do that when I think it over.. Oh well... Hari Raya is coming but Im not really into it... It seems my Hari Raya spirit is gone... Ahhhhh!! What ever has happened to me?!!! Oh well... I'm done!! Heheheheh

Anwar Ibrahim... He has won the critical By-election... My... My... Malaysia is really in a big pinch is someone like Anwar were to be the Prime Minister of Malaysia... It's not because of the accuse of him doing the sodomy... For I can never believe that he did that but the one thing that I don't like about him is that, from my point of view he is power hungry and clearly can be seen. His wife begged to the Malaysians to vote for him and to return him to the Parliament... My... My... If I were to be able to say something to her... I will say this: For goodness sake lady why on earth must you begged to the Malaysians to vote for Anwar if you know Anwar is innocent? You can just fight fairly right? Instead of using people's emotions of empathy towards your husband...

Anwar also promises the Malaysians that he will bring down the cost of Inflamation and the price of oil down... How on earth is he going to do that? The World stock is on its low and the whole world is on inflation and the price of oil even though it has dropped but still it is still expensive... How is he going to fulfill this empty promises of his? To reduce inflation? How is he going to do that? When they country's stock is close to its lower years, inflation has surged to 27 year high and the ringgit currency has fallen to 9 months low against the dollar... HOW IS ANWAR going to bring all of this down and improve the situation? By using his own body oil to produce oil? I don't think so right?

I have no offence on anybody or support anybody in these... It's just that it is clearly seen as if the Malaysians are being paid to vote for Anwar... Why can't they see and intepret what they hear and compare it to the World's stats? There is nothing we can do until the U.S.A has settle its bloody problems... To me... The major cause of all this is the U.S.A especially it's President George Washington Bush. Ever since the attack on Iraq, things does not look well... Well... If it were me, I will put all the blame on Bush not on anybody else... I think that Bush is the No.1 wanted terrorists... Invading other people country for his own purposes and conquest for power...

Mysteries! Mysteries! Everywhere we go there are lots of mysteries!! I just love mysteries!! I just love old abandoned buildings! Even though I am afraid of them but still.. What is hidden in all of these abandoned buildings? What secret does it holds? Does it holds ancient intelligence of this world or the world beyond? Even just the mentioning of them sends shivers down my spine!! Of course I am not one bit interested about Singapore though... Even if Singapore were to hold mysteries... I would not even bother to want to even know about it..."

All of this specters? Aren't they interesting? Very interesting right? Those with psychic abilities.. PK-LT... Wow!! Well.. I only know some of them though but nevertheless I want to learn more about them and that is basically why I want to travel around the world. Of course my main motive is my animes but nevertheless I am still interested in all this mysteries! Mysteries of Mother Nature herself and the wonders that came with it! The 7 wonders of the Ancient Worlds, Modern Worlds!! I just love them all.. Even though they are not mysteries.. I love to go to this amazing places one day... If I am bloody rich... But sadly.. I am poor... hahaha... Bleuggh... Oh well I guess this dream can never come true is it? Even with high salary as such.. It's such a hassle living in a country like Singapore... Everytime... Pay and Pay... Pay this.. Pay that... Even though Singapore is soooo tiny... Everything is so expensive... Even the transport fees also... Hummph... If Singapore is as huge as America or Japan than I understand.. But Singapore is sooo tiny... Our butt is not even warm, we have already reached our destination... Singapore is truly a small and boring country to live in... Oooops... I cannot say much... Sorry...

I have always been alone in all my life... Even though I am surrounded by my family and wonderful, irreplacable friends, I will still feel alone inside... I know I am being selfish for having this type of feelings in me... But the more time passes by, it just made me realise that I am more alone than I thought... With each time passing by, it feels as if my heart is being taken over by the cold of the frozen tundra... Even happiness seems so far for me to achieved... My smile, my laughter... Is it all fake? Is this the the true me? What do I really want in life? Why is it that nothing I want has never come to me?! I have lots of dreams and wishes but all of these are just but dreams and can never be reality...

Even though I have tried my hardest and my very best in showing my capability, my hard work is not seen... Like as I thought... I can never be in the spotlight aren't I... I will always have to be the one working in the shadow, becoming someone's backbone... Even so... I am so used in being this way that it feels as if it already a part of me... My hard work and everything... It really does not meant anything isn't it in this society?! What's the point of me being hardworking and trying my best in everything if it only makes me even more miserable?! ME being nice and kind... What the point of it if people keep using me for something they need for their own purpose?! If that is what destiny wants me to be then I might as well accept it right!! I have no right to say NO to my destiny as it has already been predestined the moment I was born...

Why is it that people keep wanting to be friends with me even though I have surround a barrier myself?! I have always tried not to make new friends as I was afraid of being used and forgotten the moment they have needed something from me... What are the true purpose of they wanting to be my friend? During my primary school days... I have always been alone... I have no friends during that time and that is the truth... During that time I only have the sky and plants around me to be my friend... When I enter secondary school life, I earn myself very wonderful friends and even earning very very very close friends whom I really treasure with all my heart... I was really happy back then... Really happy... I can not ask more than what I have during that time... But... Soon... Reality came slapping me back to this world... All changed when I entered another leap of education system and finally made me realised that all this while, I have always been in the shadow of my friends and I can never stand out when I am alone... I bathe in the light of my friends... I can never shine on my own...

In fact I am just like the moon... I can never shine on my own... I need another to help make me shine... Without the sun, the moon will never be able to be seen in the dark sky... I am just like the moon... MY friends are like the sun and i am like the moon supporting the sun... In the end, nobody recognizes the moon as the moon is not something lovely and in this society not all adores the moon or even admire the moon... To me... Everytime I see the moon and stars up on the dark velvet sky it makes me feel that I am just like them... Their light can rarely be seen as their light are covered by the majestic light from the sun and it appears that I am just like the infinite dark velvet sky... Living as a shadow in other's presence...

I am after all a very NORMAL average student/person... With no special talents and special skills... I am not born with these I understand that... Even though everybody say that everyone is born the same, I do not see that... And everything is fair... To me... That is not true... If it is true that everything is fair, and born just like how normal kids are then why must there be innocent babies born with deformaties?! IS that what you call normal and fair?! I really do not understand anything of this! I can never understand on to why am I even born if I were to just always be a shadow and only create unhappiness and trouble around me? MY existence alone is not making anyone happy... I am never appreciated... I am never appreciated... Thus, this marks the beginning of Khafian's life as a shadow...

Well.. This has been a while since i blogged.. Nothing much really has happens to me.. Nothing happy.. Well.. With the exception of Japanese Animes of course!!! Oh and of course flowers, plants, animals, stuffed animals.. ahhhhhh... Juz feeling them, touching them makes my heart swoon with immense of affection.. They are juz so pretty, fluffy and cute!!! ahhhhhh... The feel of it.. Lightens my heart.. But of course this is all momentarily when the harsh reality slapped my face

I was asked if i have done anything that i am proud and like about myself.. To tell the truth.. I have not done anything that i can be proud of myself.. Theres nothing about me that i liked.. What is there to like about me.. Seriously.. Ive always hated myself ever since im in Pri 4...

Like the spirits that govern the elements of Fire, Water, Earth, Fire And Love... Everything is interwined with each other.. The very thread of life runs in between... Creating the time and space... Mysteries are hidden and untold... Creatures of unknow origins emerge and thus begins the quest of such... Memories flew like the birds in the sky... Increasing and unlimited like the azure sky... It will only stop when time stops... Even so... The very essence of this earth is govern by the complexitiy of the guardians...

I know where i stand in this world and this very existence... I am useless and even if i were to die.. No one will even remember me... And i guess this world would not miss a person like me... Even my own littlest sister belittled me... Rejecting my help with her work... i know its pathetic tat an adult who hears this should regard this as nothing for she still a child but to have to hear frm someone who is younger saying im lousy and not clever... it juz really makes me hurt in the inside more... More and more pain is added to my life...

No one ever appreciates me... No one... My existence is like a pile of trash waiting to be discarded... I juz have enuf with this!!! Everytime i tried to be positive and trying to accept who i am and what god has given this me... This happens... Everytime its like this... Everytime... Everytime im going to bring myself up, this happens.. Why must this happen to me?? Ive lost those whom i closed with.. My Great Grandma and my Grandpa... MY friends are drifting apart from me... Its alright if this.. im able to accept it But im not able to accept if my confidence is taken away from me...

Ive juz tried to be who i am last time... The Real me who accepts whatever is thrown at me... But look what happen... Once again... Ive been hurt by the strands of time, reality and my own inferiority that even your little sister belittle you... Its enuf that i have some of my friends who belittled me... I do not want it from my own family or cuzzins... My uncles and aunties have belittled me.. Enuf.. I know i have to study hard to show tat even tho im in ITE i can still make it and ive showed them.. And yet... People still belittled me.. Ive had enuf with this...

Its as if my entire existence is on a standstill. The entire universe has stopped expanding... To be belittled by your own family, cuzzins... Ive had it... I dun mind and i can take it from my friends who belittled me but i do not expect my own family to belittle me... Its like a dagger was stabbed thu my heart..

Konichiwa!! Hehe.. Fay here... Thats a name i like to associate myself with.. This name belongs to a mage in an anime. Anyway im not goin to talk abt this.. Im actually goin to blog abt some interesting things regarding the mummification of mummies during the Egyptian Times. Its really amazing!!! The procedures to mummifying a mummy is juz breathtaking.. I do not know much tho... Thats why im currently reading books on Archaelogy and also Psychology.. Im getting interested in psychology. Hahaha...

The only thing i know is this and its from the movie: The Mummy. However, ive done the research and its actually true. The organs of the one whom they are supposed to mummified will be separated into 5 different jars. I do not know wat are the organs. However the process of removing the brain from the person whom they want to mummified is really amazing. They poke a long needle up through yuour nose, they twirl it around and they pull it right out of your nose. The process is fast and no pain. This too is taken from the movie... Ive done the research and once again its true.

Its amazing isnt it. About placing curses on the mummies; that may be true. For during the times of Prophet Moses, magic are at rage and so its not a surprised that these mummifiers placed curses on the Pharoah's Tomb. During the times of Moses, magic is always around only when the times of Prophet Muhammad, magic is no longer made available for everybody and those who want to learn or acquire magic have to do it on their own risk.

Learning abt the ancient times and scavenging for rare knowledge like this is really wonderful. Ive got a research wic i did regarding Cannabilism. Ive watched it at Discovery Channel and futher my knowledge abt it more through my encyclopedias and wikipedia. Theres one wic i found its about this man at around his 40s. He wrote it in his site or smth and say tat those who want to commit suicide and cant do it. Come to this following address i will do it for u at a price. The price is erm.. i wont say it.. It will be freaky.

Im still in the depression state and i still cant get rid of the loneliness feeling in my heart.. But im trying to not to be bothered by it. Even though its hard.. Hahah... Even my laughter can only be borught upon if i watched animes. Weird huh...

Most of my friends say tat i am unique different from other malays. I do not know wat they meant. In wat way am i diff?? I looked at myself... All i see is a nerd who loves his animes and books and games and psp. Oh well.. I guess the question will still remain a mystery...

I do not know why i am still writing in this blog... But this is the only way i know on how i can express my emotions and my problems... To me... This blog is like a friend... A friend who are always there to lend a listening ear no matter how foolish my problems are...

I will of course would not bother my bestfriend about my measly problems... or to my friends... They have better things to do then listen to me whine... But... I do not know how to give up... No matter what... I wont... Impossible is not in my books... Well.. with the exception of the social zone... Other than that... i may be able to face them...

Im like the wind... Blowing and landing wherever the wind stops to blow... Im like the water ever changing and calm... Im like fire that burns with fury even with the slightest of misery... Im like earth... Rock headed and do not know how to give up...

My PeRsOnAlItY qUiRk: Depression

My current state...and it will continue... My smile and laughter are fake..

With each passing time...

Hurts in the inside... Whose heart is filled with pain... Pain with no love... Pain with loneliness...

Lost wandering soul... Finding a place in this society... Lonely wandering soul... Doesnt have any companions... Lonely life... Does not belong... No matter which walks of life...

My entire existence is being shoved down a steep cliff... Existence filled with dark flowers... No light passes through... Fake smile... Fake laughter... Beautiful dreams i can never weave...

Hate how people treated me... Hate everything... Hate myself for being me... Hate... Nothing good has ever happen to me... Their smiles... Irritating...

Walking alone in the frozen tundra... the cold emitted... pierced me... that is what i feel... everyday... The whole world has stopped revolving around me... Despair is slowly creeping close to me... slowly leaching to my soul... it invades... It starts to breed...

Every passing time... Pain surrounds me... Nothing helps to remove it... Pain of my life... Pain that it took to juz be me... Pain that people think its in my way of thinking...